Self sabotage - we all do it at one time or another. I painted this mandala at a time when i was dealing with my fear of success and how that played out in my business.


‘For me personally it is because I get an awful amount of success and I don't think I deserve it and then I want to sabotage it.’             Michael Parkinson


The Egyptian Scarabaeus beetle, is the symbol of self-generation, resurrection and renewal of the human soul. Green, health scarabs were placed next to the heart of a mummified body for protection from evil during the journey to the afterlife. They were assurance that a person’s heart would not testify against them during the weighing up of good and evil deeds following death. Often they were placed in the mouth of the deceased so that they would not speak against themselves. Scarab shapes were written in by scribes because they were an amulet for good fortune and protection.

The blue scarab mandala asks you to be aware of your inner saboteur – that part of the self that whispers doubts in your ears, preventing you from going forward holding you back with fear. The scarab beetle is about protecting ourselves from self-destructive behaviors that rob us from living a full life. Not everything about ourselves is likeable or perfect. If we focus only on our imperfections we are looking for excuses not to reach our full potential. We betray our own self.

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“The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. It is the fundamental emotion that stands at the cradle of true art and true science.”
Albert Einstein, The World As I See It